Am...Must...Will...

So much to tell, so lazy to type...

2006-05-20T14:25:00.000+10:00

Couple of major events happened since the last time I wrote...

1. I moved...5 zone away from the city....I know, I know...

2. Lost my camera during moving...

3. Been dealing with shitty agent to get the damn bond...Determined not to lose a single cent this time...

4. Determined to get a new and better paid job...

I'm getting bored with my blog layout...but then so lazy to change it...hahahahaha....

I still don't have internet at home so plz put up with my laziness+pokai-ness until I manage to get all my bills through...

To stay or not to stay...

2006-02-10T21:41:00.000+10:00

Been thinking about this for soooooo long now...

Stay: Will be with the one I love so much
I get to see Gabby grow old
More job opportunities
Easy lifestyle and earn more $$ (in terms of currency)

Home: Will be with my family whom I miss so much
Will get to hang out with my dear frens ( I miss you guys so so much!!)
Get to eat "more" delicious foods!! (Mamak here I come!)
No need to speak 'Engalish' 24 jam everyday
Cheaper stuffs and more shopping malls

Its hard to make a decision to chose either...I mean, which ever I chose, I have to live that life for the rest of my life...Which ever I chose I will still be hurt coz I want the other life as well...

When I first came here I never thought of such complications although staying here was the plan initially...At that time, I was so young and eager to live all by myself and be selfish...I wanted my own life and freedom...I had good frens around me that kept me laughing and enjoying myself...Then slowly all the good times faded away...Frens graduated and went back home...I fell in love with someone and he became my new best fren...But it wasn't the same...At the same time, I began to learn and miss the value of family...It doesn't seem fair to me that I have to trade one for the other...

Now I have to decide...Time is not on my side anymore and not a day goes by that I don't cry thinking about it...I wish I don't have to do this but I need to learn the harsh reality that I am an adult now and I need to take responsibility for all the decision in my life...I want a better life, not only for myself but for the ones that I love...

This post is getting too heavy for me...

'06

2006-01-01T15:23:00.000+10:00

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!

Alhamdullilah we survived another year...many good and bad memories of 2005 will be cherished and remembered...personally, I didn't had that much of good memories in '05...Hopefully everything will be better this year...

Happy New Year to everyone!!!!!

I will post more pictures of 2005 soon-ish...

Brawl in Sydney

2005-12-13T21:12:00.001+10:00

It is a shame that this event happens and created a massive conflict amongst the people from this peace and harmony country...

I know most of you have read the articles in papers and saw it live on news...So have I...The condition of this riot is quite bad right now and it has been going on since Sunday...It all started when some life guards at the beach in Sydney was beaten up by some Middle Eastern- looking youths when they tried to stop them from harrasing women on the beach...It was like the "last straw" for the people down there and smses started to spread around the place on the date and place this event will take place...At first, it was thought as a joke but the tension grows and people started to take this seriously...A couple of people were arrested and many end up in the hospital...

Now the other side of the story...

You won't understand this unless you live or have lived in Sydney (I don't either at first, coz I never lived in Sydney before)...

From several people that I had conversations with about this issue, it seems these Lebenese people should have expected it coming to them...I AM NOT refering that all Lebenese people in Australia, don't get me wrong...The people that I am refering to are the Lebenese in Sydney who controls the suburbs by bullying, harrasing and going around scaring people in a group of 10 or more people...They robbed, harrased, bullied, threaten to rape, and bashed people and that is what they do...It is a matter of having the upper hand in power/control...There are other racial gangs in Sydney like the Viatnamese and the Aborigines and of coz the Aussies...

There are many innocent Lebenese people in Sydney that just want peace and freedom to do anything they want in their life, just as the Aussies...Some of them are proud and glad to be in this country to start a new chapter of their lives...A small percentage of them brought their harsh survival behaviour from their past to this place to mark unfamiliar territory as they did came here to seek refuge from their troubled country...

Several people that I know well has shared their experiences with the Lebenese people in Sydney before...Dave was almost mugged (he didn't had any $$ on him at all) and bashed...He and his sister + hubby lived in Sydney before...So did Justin and several other people who are not ashamed to say that they are glad this event finally took place...To them, the hatred is not fuelled by religion but by the people themselves...

I agreed with what Tasha said...Both sides are wrong to attack each other, as they cause more harm to the innocent people living in that areas...Cars were vandalised, broken glasses and bottles are everywhere...Now they are using more dangerous weapons like steel bars and knives...For now this riots haven't spread to Qld yet, so I really hope that all of these will end soon...

For everyone's sake...

~~Hiyah, now I need to learn kung fu...Jackie Chan style~~

.........

2005-12-12T22:23:00.000+10:00

I got nothing interesting to blog abt...

No interesting places, people or events to talk abt...

My life is boring...

Ouchies!

2005-11-14T00:10:00.000+10:00

It was cloudy earlier this morning today...

We have decided to go fishing to kill time and boredom...Head off early in the morning without checking the weather forecast today...It actually didn't bother us much as we were going to head there regardless...

Went to this beautiful place...

Had a wonderful time...So peaceful and quiet...Had time to read while waiting...But alas, the rain arrived...It was like somebody turned on the tap....We went to the cafe and had drinks while waiting...I had the biggest shock when I visited the ladies and saw myself in the mirror...I was so burned and tan...Anyways, we had to head back home empty-handed but with burns and dark tanned skin...

Some pics of the spot...

Takziah...

2005-10-22T00:41:00.000+10:00

I just read Utusan online today and found out the news of the death of our PM's wife, Datin Seri Endon Mahmood yesterday...

Datin Endon suffered breast cancer for several years and has received treatments overseas...I was surprised to hear the news as I recalled reading recently that she was doing better with the current treatment...What a sad day it must be for the Malaysian people to lose such a role model and the backbone of our leader...

Despite the sad news, she passed away in the "bestest" month in the year, the holy month of Ramadan...I wish the best for the Allahyarham's family...Al-fatihah...

To everyone, Selamat Berpuasa (its a bit too late to say this..) and Selamat Hari Raya...Don't shop till your parents drop (or yourself, if it applies) and drive safetly...Remember to set aside my duit raya k...hehehehe...al-maklum, poket kering daaa...

Gua pokai!!!

2005-10-12T23:11:00.000+10:00

Went to JB HiFi today...

They were selling stuffs below cost price...this is just a one-time off kindda thing that happens once in a blue moon (more like once a year)...naturally, the keppo here drag her boyfriend to window shop...

First thing first...drag him to the digi cam display...although the prices were slashed down big time, it is still tooooo expensive for me...wait a minute, everything is toooo expensive for me...no work, no $$...stared at the cams for like 5 minute before realising that my driver's missing...found him later at the car sound area...whinged about my "pokai-ness" and he was like "tu lar...pegi cari keje"...chet!

Anyways, I dunno why I need a camera anyways...its not like I travel much...besides, the technology changes so fast that I might need a new cam within 3 months or so...It is human nature that we cannot be satisfied with what we have...Aiyoh~~

Okie dokies...got to get out from here...

Hair cut again...

2005-10-01T22:15:00.000+10:00

Had ma second hair cut this year...

Plus a bit of kaler...

Getting sick having hair poking my eyes and tickle my lubang idung...

Maybe I'll go for green or light blue kaler next time...

Update..

2005-09-27T14:23:00.000+10:00

Nothing much actually...

Last Saturday went to Bribie Island to celebrate Dave's grandparents 60th wedding anniversary...Then went to watch Dukes of Hazzard in cinema on Sunday...Spend the whole day washing the bathroom on Monday and decided to be slightly lazy today...

My sister said I drove the car like "unta jalan terkedek-kedek"...She and my other sister's getting their P licence before me...I decided to wait till next year before I try for the test...Just because this is my unlucky year, I don't think it is wise and safe for everyone's sake (especially my exam instructor) for me to drive on the road...

Had a very long conversation with Kish on the weekend...My ears are still sore till today after more than 2 hours conversation on the phone...

Normally this month of the year brings back happy and sad memories to me...To all my friends celebrating their birthday this month, Selamat Hari Jadi...Especially to my two lovely fwens, Naz and Tasha...Dave and I also celebrated our 2nd year anniversary recently...We both lost our grandfathers on the month of September...And not forgetting the tragedy of 9/11 4 years ago (which also turns out to be my fren, Shiereen's 2nd year wedding anniversary)..

Rite, I'm outta here...

FINALLY!!!!

2005-09-09T20:36:00.000+10:00

I finally managed to GET IT!!...on my second attempt....

hehehehehe....

I got my learners....

Look out people, the trouble (or more like the accident prone) is ON THE ROAD!!

The story of a bird on Mt Cootha....

2005-08-24T16:12:00.000+10:00

Dave and I went to Mt Cootha's restaurant for dinner on Sunday...

Nothing special, just want to enjoy Nando's and butterscotch ice-cream that we've bought at West End...I was having 1/4 hot and he was having 1/2 xtra hot chook...We were nibbling on the chips first and had a talk about his camping trip during the weekend...That is when A BIRD flew straight to my face...

SMACK!!!

Then the bird just flew away back to where it was before...The place went quiet and everyone just stares at me...This bird just flew to me and what it looks like to them, was giving me a kiss on my nose!! Don't think it didn't hurt...It felt like someone just belted a golf club to my nose...The impact left me with red, flush face from the hit and embarrassment...Dave asked me if I had seen it coming and said that he is starting to get really worried about me...Duh, of course I didn't even tho I was watching the bird during our conversation and saw the bird flew...But I didn't expect it to flew straight to my face...Anyways, I am sure this will be another laughing material to those who knew me well...

Beside then bird-kissing, my life is in "not-that-great" mode...Problems arising from every corner of my life....I am so blessed that I have people that are supportive around me...Apart from my life, Riverfestival is around the corner...It is from September 2-11 and of course the traditional RiverFire...Note to myself, don't bring the camera again...The last time I wasted a roll of 36, which I managed to only caught the darkness of the night....

Also this upcoming month will be a special month to both of us...And it is also a sad month for both of us...But that is another story...

And don't expect me to update soon...Been so lazy lately to write anything....*GRIN*

July & August Birthday Shout Outs!!

2005-08-02T15:15:00.000+10:00

July and August are normally my broke time...

Happy Belated Birthday to these lovely people:

~NurRaihan (Dayu) -> My lovely cuzzie
~Shahanaz Abdul Rahim -> My beautiful sister
~My baby cuzzie, Anis Sufiah
~Zuraidah ->X-classmate at SMKBBSB

And Happy (Future) Birthday to:

~Rahimah Ibrahim ->Dear Mother
~Rahim Yusof -> Dear Father
~Shakira Abdul Rahim -> My other lovely sister
~Nurrashid -> Uncle
~Nurleila Hussin-> Ma best mate

I had a good birthday celebration this year...Went to Broncos Club for dinner with Dave and his family...Received candles and pampering stuffs for pressies...

Well, update more later...

Walk 101: Basic in learning to walk

2005-07-18T11:42:00.000+10:00

Had the surgery done last Monday...

Now the painful part has started...Since Wednesday, been so busy with physio to learn to walk again...It is as if I have never use my right leg before...Sessions are so frequent and tiring, I hardly have an energy left to stand up afterwards...

Also I have several problems with uni stuffs...Looking forward to get over it...To make things worst, my computer does not respond when dialling...Modem problem probably...Luckily, I am able to access internet somewhere else before/after sessions...Thus, this post...

Well, got to go now...Will start session at 11.30...

My Next Project...once I can walk again...

2005-07-05T18:07:00.000+10:00

This is my next target...

They come in six different colours but I fancy the white one...The newer model has just been released...They come in three different colour including pink! The new ones have 5 mp and more additional features...

I can only own one of these gorgeous when I start working again...Hopefully I still have my job after more than 10 weeks off...Thank god for lay-by!!!At least I have more reasons to motivate myself to heal faster...Don't worry baby, I'll come and get you ASAP!!! *drool*

Current situation: Using that to take pictures...Need a real digi camera

More surgery to come...

2005-07-02T13:12:00.000+10:00

9 more days to the next schedule surgery...

This surgery is to remove the screw/pin out of my leg after 12 weeks..Can you believe it has been that long??...Anyways, it is a day surgery so it means I don't have to be admitted unless experiencing complications...It will involve more staples on my leg and pain killers...What a bummer!

The doc said I will probably take months after the surgery to walk like normal again...More physio and rehab for my leg...My next sem starts in 3 weeks time so they better do something fast coz i'm not missing classes anymore...

Talked to Kish last nite...Oh yeah, congratz on the part-time job and work hard babe! Nice to catch up wif you again and insya-Allah I will get another card to call ya...So just wait for my call k...*wink wink*....

Happy Birthday!!

2005-06-25T20:55:00.000+10:00

To my dear best friend, who stick by me thru thick and thin,

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY!!!

His birthday was yesterday actually but didn't had a chance to blog...We celebrated Dave's birthday with his family at a italian restaurant in SouthBank...He had a chocolate mudcake with custard pastry on top with sparkles...I didn't get a chance to take any pictures tho...

Again, Happy Birthday darling and I love you so much.

Final exams period...

2005-06-14T21:09:00.000+10:00

One down, one more to go...

And another research due end of the month....

~Oh boy~

*sigh*

Out from the "pink-n-purple" sock...

2005-06-03T09:34:00.000+10:00

So my leg is finally free...

Not as free as I expected but...The pin/screw is still in there...Which means I still can't walk...The docs wanted me to put partial weight on this leg to exercise the muscles...I still have to use the darn crutches...The next check-up will be in 4 weeks time for another XRay before they make a decision to pull out the pin...

After 6 weeks in a cast, my skin was so dry and so itchy...Been scratching all nite long and my bed is full of skin flakes...*gross*...The scar is healing quite well and new skin underneath starting to emerge...The foot is a bit bruised and swollen but overall, everything looks good...

Now I have to go to my final exam in crutches...Am so not looking forward to call the cab at 6.30 a.m coz my exams starts at 8.30 a.m...Will try to post up new pics of post-cast a.s.a.p...

May Birthdays...

2005-05-25T11:42:00.000+10:00

I want to take this chance to wish the following people A Very Happy Birthday!!

~Nackish Miri Shah

~My dearest auntie, Rosemah Ibrahim

~Afifa Hanom Dean

~My cousin, Najmuddin (Naem)

~Naem's brother, Mohd Asif

~Zahrah (Zara)

May god bless your life with love and rezeki on your special day

Love all of ya!

Grab the popcorn...

2005-05-25T10:55:00.000+10:00

Went to watch StarWars Ep III last Sunday...

Didn't spend a cent at the cinema...Had received 2 free tickets earlier this year and decided to use it to watch the last episod...Contemplated to use it to watch The Hitchhiker's Guide to The Galaxy...I must say that I did not had any expectations beforehand...It was not as good as the previous ones (especially the part where Darth Vader learned that Padme died and his scream sounds so gay!) but it connects the dots...I finally understand the whole thing and they did a good job with the battle...Personal view: They should have shown more battle fights....But I wonder why did Princess Leia said she remembers her mother when Padme died during childbirth?Hhhmmm....

Dave hired Team America: World Police yesterday...In short, it is a shit movie...It is a movie that criticised the americans and show how dumb they can be...Many find it funny and disturb but the truth reflects in the movie...Mainly on the issue of war with terrorism...Anyways, would be a great movie to watch if u need a laugh over stupid puppets...

I still have The Forgotten to watch...Probably tomorrow night since tonight is the State of Origin...The traditional fight between New South Wales and Queensland on the field...Will be watching it on plasma screen at the Kennedy's residence...

I have 8 days left to go before I'm out from the cast...Hopefully the screw will be remove then and I can't wait to walk again *fingers cross*...

Big Brother (BB) V

2005-05-17T15:47:00.000+10:00

Big Brother mania is sweeping the country for the fifth time..

14 new housemates (HM) are in Big Brother's house for 10 days now...We have seen hugs, kisses, cat fights, gossips, romance, spa and bedroom actions and many more in this past 10 days...The twist in this year's Big Brother is having TWINS in the house as ONE person...They swap places every 24 hours...Their mission is not to let the other HMs know that they are twins for 2 weeks...Their prize is being in the house as individuals and if they lose, they will be nominated as one person...

The other twist is everytime HM broke the house rules, they will be fine $5000 for each broken rule...yes, 5K...so far, within 10 days they have lost $95,000...The fines will be deducted from the prize money which originally worth $1 mill...the most popular broken rule is forgetting to put on the microphone...

To know more about this year Big Brother, go to http://bigbrother.3mobile.com.au

Nothing new to update about myself...Still in the cast and at home...Try to busy myself with assignment but find it hard to motivate myself...The weather is getting colder by the day...Gabby's turning into a fluffy furball...Dave's busy with stocktake count at work so I rarely see him...Got the bill from the hospital worth $6000++...Thank god for health insurance...

My Big Fall

2005-04-28T18:08:00.000+10:00

I was so stressed out from doing my law assignment on late Monday evening, so I asked Dave if he wants to have a game with me at the tenpin bowl...

We went there around 8pm and had couple rounds of pool before hitting the pins...Dave went first and score a strike...During my turn, I had a weird feeling that everything just went so slow but continue to bowl...Then IT happened...

I fell onto the lane in a very awkward position and fell on my leg...

At first, they thought it was just a sprain but I insisted to go to the hospital...Waited in the emergency room for 3 hours to see the doctor...Then, we got the bad news...

I broke my fibula bone...

She asked us to visit the orthopedic the next day...Was struggling with pain the whole night 'coz she forgot about the pain killer(ouchies!!)...The next day, it took us one and a half hours to see the doctor...He told me the ER doc made a wrong diagnose and told me the worse news...

I had split my ankle in half and broke my fibula ankle...

Immediately I was hospitalised and been given pain killers around the clock...This was on Tuesday evening, 19th April 2005...They needed to monitor my swollen ankle and scheduled my surgery as soon as the swollen has gone down...But that was not the end of the story...

On Wednesday evening, I got a phone call from Dave on the usual time...He just got back from work...He immediately told me the worst news...

Our house got robed...

By then I felt like a curse was upon me...Most of Dave's stuffs like the XBox and DVD player was stolen...Luckily, the only item that belongs to me that was missing was my printer...That person/people ransacked most of our belongings and took anything that has a money value with him/her/them...The police came over to do some finger prints check and promise to update us every now and then...

I had my surgery done on Friday afternoon...After the surgery, they gave me plenty of pain killer but I refused to have any but Panadine...I know it was a stupid decision but I rather go through the pain than the side effects of morphine...I stayed for another day before released...Went back home on Saturday, 23rd April 2005...

Currently, Dave and I am still struggling to accept the bad lucks that has happened to us...I have 29 staples on my ankle and metal plates on it...Dave have to work harder to buy new stuffs that was lost...Christine (Dave's mom) has been running around to help both of us with the hospital trips, solicitors, house, shopping, cleaning and many many more...I am really thankful to them for being there for me...

The worst week in my life...

Attached

2005-04-17T12:29:00.000+10:00

Having a boyfriend can be such a problem sometimes...

In my case its most of the time...

Wish I can be free again...

Being single is a bliss...

Weight problem

2005-04-15T16:36:00.000+10:00

Anyone who knows me, knows I have weight issue...

It is at the point where I need to wake up to myself and take serious action.Since last year I've join a gym, tried to reduce food intake and even buy smaller cloths to motivate myself.Then I found out that I have POS.A women's problem.Apparently it affects 1 out of 10 women.Which is a minor contributor to the problem...

The major factor is my appetite or desire for food.All kinds of food.Especially the ones which are not healthy.Dave said my eyes only light up when I'm talking about food.I tried to control my groceries shopping and not purchase any junk food.But when I stressed out, I turn to food.I can't control my impulse eating, which makes me really angry at myself...

On Oprah show today a 16 year old girl went into a food rehab and lost 75 pounds.She learnt to control her eating disorder and food intake.There is no such rehab over here so I went to Jenny Craig and Lite n Easy website.They provide you with meal plans, step-by-step guidance and most important (to me at least..) is ongoing support.But the price is way out of my reach.I could never afford it unless I have a full time job...

If anyone knows ways for me to get help for a cheaper price, please msg me...I don't want to be like this forever.I want to have my confidence,good health and happiness again...

I hate job hunting...

2005-04-06T10:07:00.000+10:00

They have turn me down...
Swear to avoid applying at an accounting co. next time...
I have 8 weeks left before the sem ends...
Got to get one soon...

Greenday Concert on 7th March 2005

2005-03-10T09:46:00.000+10:00

Greenday and Simple Plan was in d' house!!!

Simple Plan came out with 6 songs for the opening...They are a really good live band but too bad I don't fancy their music...

GREENDAY rocks Brisbane Entertainment Centre to the max...They perform some of the old school songs and most of the ones from American Idiot album...They are super-awesome playing live and I will definately be there on their next concert in Brisbane...

Went there with Susan (sister), Jules (bro) and Dave...Got ourselves really good sits....They reckon that this was the best concert they have been to and they have been to plenty of concert...This was my first live band concert and I've enjoyed myself...Got some official merchandises as well (f***ing EXPENSIVE!!!) and Susan drop us home...

Went home half-deaf and a sore throat...

Sad news...

2005-02-27T17:51:00.000+10:00

Gabby was due for her annual check up today...

Went to the vet around lunch time with Dave...The doc did the usual things, such as checking for fleas and her teeth...She took quite some time checking Gabby's heart beat...She said it was not normal and suspected that Gabby have a heart disease or heart murmur to be exact...

I was so shocked to hear this...The doc said she could not be sure till Gabby goes for a cardiac ultrasound with a vet specialist...She said that if her suspicious is true, then Gabby will have to be on medication for the rest of her life...And there are possibility that Gabby will need surgery...If this disease is not treated, she would probably die in a couple of years time...

Gabby is naturally playful and active cat...She loves running around the house, chasing after bugs and moths...When I came home, I know that she will be waiting at the door to great me...But lately, she seldom do that anymore...We thought it was a behavioural problem since we haven't spend much time with her...And she sleeps more and play less...We also thought that she have outgrown her kitten years...We have no clue that this would happen...

We have yet to book an appointment with vet specialist yet but we will try to help her go through this...It will cost a lot but Dave doesn't mind much as long as Gabby is healthy and well...If anyone's reading this, please pray for our lill' Gabby so she can continue living a healthy life with us...

*sob sob*

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

2005-02-14T20:15:00.000+10:00

Roses and chocolates are in the air today...

It is a perfect excuse to stop and cherish the relationship with your other half (also allow yourself to have some chocolates)...Young and old couples spending time together; holding hands and plenty of hugs and kisses...Red and pink are the main theme colours...At the end of the day, a romantic dinner for two at a lush restaurant...

That is the perceived picture of the perfect Valentine's Day celebration...Well, at least it is for me...

My poor baby had something planned for this day for me...He had connections to get a special breed of rose which has been designed to have only 21 petals...Since I am 21, he thought that it would be special for me to have the honour having one of these roses...Unfortunately, the plan failed and he had to resort to something else...To make it up for it, he cleaned the house up and cook the most beautiful dinner...Lamb chops with sweet potatos...Well, not the perfect dinner as I imagine but it was really beautiful...

As for him, I came up with the cutest baby dragon that sings "You Are My Sunshine" with a box of chocolate in the pouch...I know it sounds lame but I just know that he would love it...And he did...If not, he is doing a good job 'pretending' to like it...

To all, Happy Valentine's Day...Go get yourself a box of chocolates and indulge yourself for once...Remember to cherish your love ones...Give your mom a hug and a kiss once in a while...And give yourself a break from everything...Be happy*wink*...

Update on Australia Day

2005-01-26T14:08:00.000+10:00

As most of you would have noticed by now, the links to my personal collection of pictures are up...

These pictures were taken before and during my stay in Malaysia for 5 weeks...

I had Torts chips yesterday in the city...It has been quite some time since I dropped by Queen St...Decided to stroll along the street and visit new shops I've never been in before...had a nice time reading books at Borders...had coffee all by myself...really enjoyed the time to myself...
Found the CDs Sheda gave me during her previous visit...Its the recorded journey of five Singaporeans who bunk in with us and sleep on the beanbags and tiny little heater...But we had a blast touring Brisbane...They are a lovely bunch of people and I hope that they would consider to visit Brisbane again...

Today is Australia Day...I dont know the history of this day but I know this day is full of fun activities...There is the Australia Day parade at South Bank,free cruises on the boats,Open House at the Queensland Governer's House...And the grand finale, The Fireworks by the Brisbane river...I won't be able to go to the parade altho I would really love to go but I will drop by South Bank for the fireworks...I'm feeling quite sick today so the parade plans end up in the bin...

What are your plans for today?

New editions...

2005-01-06T15:01:00.000+10:00

It feels good to finally see your other half after 5 weeks apart...

He looks the same, just thinner than usual...He was beaming all the way thru, talking non-stop...Gabby was so big, I dont even recognise her...She was a bit defensive then but she is alrite now...It felt so strange, as though it was my first time in Brisbane...

I missed Malaysia already...My family and friends...I want to thank Sharifah Nurul Hafizah and her friend, Nora for sending me away at the airport...Sha, you are a true friend...I'm sorry I didnt had the chance to spend more time with you during my stay...I miss my mom and my sisters...My brother just celebrated his 15th birthday last week...I can't believe time passed by so fast...

After being reminded by a dear friend NyiNyi, links to my personal picture collections will be on the site soon...note to everyone: I dont have a digital camera so it will take some time to be online...So if anyone is thinking of getting me a present for any occasion, a digital camera would do me good...hehehehe

Adious for now...

2004~~

2004-12-28T18:38:00.000+10:00

Three days towards the end of year 2004...

Time is moving really fast...The next thing we know, we are at the end of the year, planning new resolutions and getting new diaries/calanders...So many things happened in 2004...Good and bad memories...Times that we laughed, times that we cried...I swear I can't remember everything that happened during the year but there are some memories that I cherish and some I wish it didn't happened...

Last year, I spend the New Years Eve with the Kennedy's at Rainbow Bay, Gold Coast...Stayed for 2 days...It feels good to spend the holidays with a family since I'm far away from mine...We drove in and out of New South Wales couple of times to check out fireworks...They are illegal in Queensland...That time of year, the sun is out and the waves are huge...Just what you are looking for in Gold Coast...

So how will I spend my time on this upcoming New Year's Day? I don't know... Probably will be at home with everyone, watching TV, eat outside, and pray for the families in the countries that was hit by the massive tsunami...I was lucky that none of my family members were at the states that got hit by the waves...I sympathise the victim's families and hope all the best for them...

I will be back with Gabby soon...Miss her so much...Hope she still remembers me...

This is the last entry for the year...Happy New Year to everyone!!!

Its time to celebrate again~~

2004-11-18T21:46:00.000+10:00

The holidays are here again...

This is the time for us to remember the meaning of relax and loosen up those tight muscles... Most people I know have already begun their journey into three months of doing nothing...Hhhmm....Some people have travel plans, others spending quality time with their love ones...Some people have to endure summer school and some have to work for their living...Well, the definition of 'holiday' depends on the individual, I suppose...

To my graduating friends, the worst have finally pass by...Three years of studying, assignments, exams, stress, tears, laughters and friends have made the person you are...Thanks for being there for me and may your future undertakings will be successful...Do keep in touch no matter where you are...I wish you all the best in the world coz ya all deserve it...

To my continuing friends, don't worry...Your time will come...Just enjoy the summer holidays and you'll be fresh (and tanned...) to continue the journey...

To all my friends celebrating Hari Raya (Eid Mubarak), "Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin"...

For me, some of you will probably see me around...hehehehehe....

*To be continued*

Week 13 Semester 2, 2004

2004-10-20T15:27:00.000+10:00

The last week of the semester...

Everyone seems to be attending the last lectures...Everyone does not want to miss the "tip of the semester" for final exams...Too bad, coz most of my lecturers are aware of this habit and gave out tips earlier...*grin*

I have one good reason to hate this week...I hate the pressure of facing the finals...Its killing me...Im sure most students feel the same way too when they realise that they only have a week left to study and be prepared...I can see the usual pattern happening again...First stress coz there is a week left...Then panic attack...Followed by the thoughts of failling the paper...Then stressed out when think too much...Then imagination runs wild and so on...*pulling my hair*

Anyways, as my lecturer said, there is still time...To all my friends, good luck in your exams and have fun stressing out yourselves...

Codenpendency.

2004-10-10T09:52:00.000+10:00

I went online and search for the title above...Found some interesting facts to share...

"What are some of the symptoms of codependency?

controlling behavior
distrust
perfectionism
avaoidence of feelings
intimacy problems
caretaking behavior
hypervigilance (a heightened awareness for potential threat/danger)
physical illness related to stress

Codependency has expanded into a definition which describes a dysfunctional pattern of living and problem solving developed during childhood by family rules.

General rules set-up within families that may cause codependency may include:

It’s not okay to talk about problems
Feelings should not be expressed openly; keep feelings to yourself
Communication is best if indirect; one person acts as messenger between two others; known in therapy as triangulation
Be strong, good, right, perfect
Make us proud beyond realistic expectations
Don’t be selfish
Do as I say not as I do
It’s not okay to play or be playful
Don’t rock the boat.

As adults, codependent people have a greater tendency to get involved in relationships with people who are perhaps unreliable, emotionally unavailable, or needy. And the codependent person tries to provide and control everything within the relationship without addressing their own needs or desires; setting themselves up for continued unfulfillment.

Even when a codependent person encounters someone with healthy boundaries, the codependent person still operates in their own system; they’re not likely to get too involved with people who have healthy boundaries. This of course creates problems that continue to recycle; if codependent people can’t get involved with people who have healthy behaviors and coping skills, then the problems continue into each new relationship."

Source:http://www.allaboutcounseling.com/codependency.htm

I can see this is happening to me...

Anyone with more info on this topic, pls message me...I would like to know more....

Sore muscles...

2004-10-08T15:23:00.000+10:00

My whole body is still sore after 2 sessions at the gym...

Handed in my assignment today...supposedly i have a presentation today but cancelled due to miscommunication between my fellow classmates and my tutor...i'll be presenting next week...and my topic is about skateboard industry...What the..!!Anyways, shouldn't be complaining since it carries a lot of marks...

Still have another group assignment to go...it is due next week...if we're lucky, we'll probably get a pass in this paper...too many issues in the group...*sigh*...but lets keep the spirit high and do all the best to archieve the best 'pass' ever...*who am i kidding here??!!!*

All right, all right...i'll just remain positive till things get worse...then i will start to panic again...

P/s: nothing interesting happened in my life anymore...all i can talk are about studies and gym...im such a boring person nowadays...hhhmmm:(

This Sucks!!

2004-10-05T21:15:00.000+10:00

I have two different assignments due this week...

My studies are killing me rite now...i thought of applying for extension but i know it won't do me any good...my brain feels like exploding at any moment now...im lacking of sleep, munchies and coffee for the past 4 days now...try to substitute coffee with V but no luck...it taste like cordial to me now...

Because of my stress lately, Dave encourage me to enrol to a gym nearby...We both did...Spend 45 minutes there and boy, how relief i was after...my brain is starting to work again...but my body is aching like hell....in other word, my body HATES it but my brain LOVES it...hhhmmm....

Now i just need to control my food intake...but that m&m looks really good now...*yum yum*

Thank God for The Holidays

2004-09-25T17:50:00.000+10:00

The mid term break is here now...

One week break from all the craziness...Free from all the rushing and running...For most people this is the time to catch up with their family and friends...or catch up with all the TV series that they missed...or time to put the feet on the coffee table and be a potato couch...or go skiing at Mt Hotham or Perisher...or better yet, go to various beautiful destinations all around Australia and enjoy the holidays...

But for me, I have to stay at home...due to lack of money and lack to free time to myself...i still have one more group project to go and we plan to utilise the holidays for meeting up...A couple of friends planned to go to the Sunnie Coast and rent a caravan for several days...*sigh*...Anyways, studies always comes first (yeah rite) i supposed...I still have four months of nothing-to-do during the summer...

So to all the uni students, have a nice holidays and go enjoy yourselves...

Sad sad day...

2004-09-20T11:59:00.000+10:00

The past week has been a difficult week for me...

Sometimes i wonder what will happen if i opted to continue studying in Malaysia...would my life be better off or worse...right now i can say that i miss home dearly...Brisbane is great but too much BS happening here at the same time...i feel so lonely most of the time here...from the minute i woke up, my whole body feels numb...its weird feeling...

I hate this emptiness in my life...

I hate this feeling...

Just want to be happy again...

Panic Attack!

2004-09-06T13:10:00.000+10:00

My group assignment is due tomorrow...

I didn't sleep well last nite coz been thinking abt the assignment due on Tuesday...I can't believe 8 weeks just went by just like that...There is 5 weeks left this sem...And 2005 is just around the corner...

Busy, busy weeks...This week assignment due...Week 9 Group presentation...Week 10 Assignment due...Week 11 Presentation... Week 12 Another assignment due...

Normally i would complain about how busy and hectic my life is...And i would mention how much i hate all of this...But this time around i welcome it into my life...Guess changes are for the better...

Anyways, about the last entry...I was really missing my family back home...This might come as a suprise to some people...Yeah, just wish i was back home with my family, Astro and lots of yummy food...

Already then....

A New View of Life

2004-09-03T22:30:00.000+10:00

Misery, shock, anger, frustration, sadness and emptiness has been my best friend for the past 2 days...

Until good friends made me realise that the world is cruel and selfish...The phrase "cruel to be kind" suddenly means a lot to me...To be honest, I always thought that the world is such an innocent place...Oh boy, how wrong was I...

Now, I have a new view of the world...Never take things for granted...Selfish is the only way to survive...The only way to protect myself from the cruel reality...

I know this entry is vague...Insya-Allah, I will explain more on Tuesday...

To my family: I miss you all so much.

The Past Week...

2004-08-31T21:48:00.000+10:00

Here are the major events in the past week...

1. 25/8 - My mom flew back to Kl after 5 wonderful days in Brisbane...Me and Dave send her to the Brisbane International Airport after dinner...During that 5 days, me and my mom spend most of the time doing stuffs together e.g shopping (hehehe..)...I finally introduced Dave and family to her...Dave's mom, Christine droved us around Brisbane and helped us find information for my father's business...It was sad to say goodbye but life must go on...

2. 28/8 - Riverfestival...I have been waiting for this the whole year...Earlier before, Dave's mom was admitted into a hospital for chest pain...Went to visit her in the morning...In the evening, me and Dave caught a bus to Southbank to get good sits...Went to see Nackish before the Riverfire starts...The fireworks started at 7 p.m, went on for 1/2 hr...I can't believe how lame it was...The most exciting part was the starting and the ending when two RAAF F111 strike jets flew by...Well, at least i was there with my love...that's all that matters...Took the bus back home...

3. 29/8 - My baby sister's BIRTHDAY!! She just reached her sweet sixteen...Bought for her a beautiful pair of earings and two gorgeous necklaces...Shakira is the most girly girl i ever met...She is so tall and lanky, she looks like a walking stick...She is blessed with a intellegent mind, wonderful hight and a beautiful face...If she puts her mind into something, she will most likely get it...She has always been a baby sister to me...And also, she is my father's good luck charm when we go fishing...For some reason, all the fishes are attracted to her...hehehe...She is also very gentle with kids...Children of all ages seems to be more affectionate when she's with them...Kira, if u are reading this, maybe u should consider a career being a kindergarden teacher...Seriously...Anyways, happy birthday again and may Allah bless your life with laughter and love...

4. 31/8 - Mid semester exams!!!!!! Hate this period of the semester...Will be having mid sem exams all week long...Looking forward to the weekends when i can just relax watching DVDs...had dinner at The Gap with Dave's family...It's his father, Brian's birthday...Had a great time with them...Had a huge cheesecake slice too...*yum yum*...

Will update more in a couple of days...Tata!

Good Night Out

2004-08-22T22:05:00.000+10:00

Tonight, me and my mom had our dinner at South Bank with Dave's family...

His parents, brother, sister and brother-in-law, together with my mom and myself had our dinner at a restaurant in South Bank...The dinner was so lovely and all of us had a great time there...The whole family was great...

Before that, in the morning, me and mama went shopping for some stuffs for my sister...We went out from 10a.m till 4p.m...Talk about window shopping...By the end of the day, we couldn't even walk to the bus stop...

We took a bus to my place and introduced my mom to the second love of my life, Gabby...Gabby was so excited to see many people...We then head to the restaurant for dinner...

To sum up everything, we had a really good day...See ya all later.

Girlz Nite Out

2004-08-20T12:13:00.000+10:00

I've decided to dedicate thursday nights as the GALZ nite...

It all started when Dave ditched me every thursday night for his car and his mates...So last week i had enough and went out with Kish...it has been a while since the last time i met kish so we did lots of catching up that night...

The same thing happen yesterday as well...Me, Kish and Ayu went out to do girl stuffs e.g shopping, coffee etc...Spend the whole night with the gals just chatting away and catch up on whats happening in our lives...It feels good to be with the gals again...Hopefully this event will be a weekly ritual for us...

New update: My dearest mother will arrive in Brisbane Airport approx. 6.50p.m today...She will be here for 5 days...The main reason she came to visit me is to bring my new laptop...I feel bad but she insists...Right now i am so nervous coz i am going to introduce my boyfriend to my mom...For the people who knows me they will know that this is not easy thing for me to do...

Oh well (as Rasheda would say) i guess i will update more later;P

Riverfestival

2004-08-04T16:39:00.000+10:00

Nothing interesting happened in my life for the past weeks..

Anyways, the countdown for Riverfestival is on again...27 Days to go people...

This will be my 3rd Riverfestival...can't wait to eat all the seafood again...*yum yum*

Probably will update more later...

Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!!!!!!

2004-07-29T14:36:00.000+10:00

So i have finally reached the adulthood age...

Nothing special happened on that day...Just some sms wishes, birthday lunch with my love one and lots of reading...No presents, no celebrations, no cakes...Poor me...

Anyways, I'm 21 this year...and 22 next year...i hope this year will be way better than what it was last year...i hope the lucky star finally will fall on my lap...

Talk to ya all soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANAZ!!!

2004-07-09T17:11:00.000+10:00

Today is a wonderful day...

Today my sister finally reach her 18th birthday...Happy Sweet 18 Anaz!! She is a bright, smart, hard-working, beautiful gal that deserve a lot in her life...She score 5 A1s for her SPM and deserve to get a scholarship and she got one from Petronas...But it is for IT instead so she said no...She will start studying at a private collage in Malaysia in Business and looking forward to go futher in Accounting...

It is her dream to become an accountant, just like her mom...She has worked hard in her life to achieve it and in 5 years time, she will be one...Her strenght is in her strong will and faith...I am so proud for her and proud to be her sister...We had our ups and downs during the years...We are so close as sisters and I love her very much...

I wish u all the best in the whole world for u Shanaz...

Remember u have me if u need someone to talk to...

Love u lil sis...

Kaklong.

p/s: Hope u like the pressie!!;)

Boring...

2004-07-06T22:02:00.000+10:00

Im really bored rite now...

Been watching tv for 1/2hr and the shows nowadays are so boring...

My whole body is killing me...The positive side is I don't have to go the the gym anymore...

Anyways,to my dearest cuzzie, Happy 19th Birthday...Wish all ur dreams will come true...

Me signing out now.

Happy 22nd Birthday Dave!!!

2004-06-24T17:00:00.000+10:00

Today is my honey's birthday!!!

He is 22 this year,with 22 candles on his 'cookie-dough-ice -cream' cake and a yellow Skyline GTR R34 on his left hand side...You wonder why he deserved to get all this?? Its because his beloved mother and brother are not by his side today...They are at Mongolia, visiting his sister's family. And because he is the sweetest thing in the whole universe (well, he is to me!!)...He has been a great friend, a great supporter and a great person to argue with...He listens to me, tell me it will be okey when things are going bad and cheers me up with chocolate when i need it the most...

Although i have to admit that he can be irritating, boring, annoying SOB* (mind my language), he is also the cutest, adorable, 'hard-outside-mushy-inside' kindda guy...He annoys the the f*** out of me most of the time, but he's all right... I love when he gives in when we argue (female ego) but then i feel bad and guilty... He loves to suprised me with stuffs that i like (although he hates it e.g window shopping or more chocolate) and made me feel special and loved *lovey-dovey*...

David Kennedy, I hope all your wishes will come true and be bless with love, knowledge and prosperity...

I love you baby.

Shrek 2

2004-06-22T22:41:00.000+10:00

Me n Dave went to see Shrek 2 last Sunday...It was hilarious!!

Highly recommended for depressed soul...

Good exam stress relief...

note: Thanks Dave!!

One Down, One More To Go

2004-06-21T10:43:00.000+10:00

Just got out from C321 at Carseldine campus...

Been up all nite studying for psychology, worrying what my assignment mark will be, hoping that the exam will be really easy, wishing that i studied earlier, craving for more chocolate and lollies, longing for my comfy pillow and teddy...

*sighs*

Now with exam done and assignment collected, I feel like im flying with the birds...But freedom is still an illusion coz i still have ONE MORE paper to go!!!!

The next one will be in a couple of days from now...Need to study...Need to sleep 1st...Need to eat before sleep...Need to watch TV before eat...Need to go to the loo before watch TV...Need to go back 1st before go to the loo...Aiyoh~~

Oh yeah, Terri got evicted yesterday...

*yawn* *rubbing my eyes* *Pillow, oh pillow, where are uuuuu???*

"Exam Mania"

2004-06-19T21:43:00.000+10:00

I sat for my final paper in Business Cycles and Economic Growth (EFB202) last Thursday...

Don't wanna talk much about it...Just that it is VERY important to pass this paper coz next sem's subjects are determined by this unit...I think the finals went well...But we will just have to see how it goes...

I will sit for Psychology 1 (PYB101) paper this Monday...I have to travel to Carseldine early in the morning since the paper starts at 8.30 a.m...I will also sit for the Firms, Markets and Resources (EFB211) next week...That will be my last paper...This subject is also VERY important to me...Aaarrrggghhhh!!!

I will also be moving out soon...I've lived in this unit since I arrived and had lots of memories, both good and bad ones...I want to venture to other beautiful suburbs in Brisbane...Haven't made up my mind yet on the location...Lots of big decisions to make...

Wish me luck on my exams!!*sighs*

A New Member in The Family

2004-06-13T00:21:00.000+10:00

I just received a happy news from my sister...

My darling auntie Norli has given birth to a healthy baby boy on June 4th...This is the first child for her and her husband...This baby has yet to be given a name...My baby cuz is my 27th cuz from my dad's side (note: that figure is under rated...my dad's other siblings have kids that i haven't met yet)...i hope there is more to come;)

It is kindda sad to think that the baby is born when im 21 years old...The poor kid didnt had the chance to grow up together with most of us since our average age is around 18 years old...I grew up with his mom coz our age difference were like 6 years apart...I remembered all the memories me n my cuzzies used to have growing up together...

Oh well, i wish all the best to the new mommy and daddy...Can't wait to go back n toss that kid around...like what my auntie used to do to me when i was young!!!*Evil Laugh*...

Happy Birthday Darling!!!!

2004-06-10T21:44:00.000+10:00

Today is my baby's birthday!!!

A year old, my baby's all grown up...My baby looks bigger and stronger...My baby is my life,my heart and my soul...My baby loves her mommy so much...My baby loves her daddy so much...My baby get a big birthday cake as well...My baby gets new toys...My baby loves her pressies...

My baby is the most B.E.A.U-tiful cat in the whole world!!!!!

I Love You Sweetheart...

*Happy Birthday 2 u, Happy Birthday 2 U, Happy Birthday 2 Gabby,Happy Birthday 2 Uuuuu!*

~Greeny got green lamp now~

2004-06-06T02:04:00.000+10:00

So many things happen in the same day...

The ringtune of "Shut Up" Black Eyed Peas by woke me up...Nackish called to remind me that Sheda will be in the city soon...Met her up at a Indonesian restaurant in the city...Ayu and Zara were there as well...Had a delicious meal of 'ayam bakar' there...Got Sheda a pressie too...It is a lamp shaped like a lego piece and it is GREEN...hehehehe...I love to get green stuff for her...Wonder if she still have the pressie for her 21st birthday....

Had to go back earlier than expected..Got into this huge arguement wif Dave again (as usual)...This one is worst than ever...I was so angry at him..both of us hates giving up first...and im still not talking to him as i write this;)

Tommorow is the eviction nite again...Paul, Terri and Elle are up this week...Im gonna vote for Terri..And guess what?? Miriam 'The Attractive Male' from the popular reality show "There Is Something About Miriam" (for those who are not aware of this show, read the blog on May 21st) is gonna be the special intruder in Big Brother's house for a day..I hope the boys won't fall in love with 'her'...

Well people, got to go to bed soon..Darn that coffee...Hehehehe...

GREENY IS IN D HOUSE!!!!

2004-05-31T01:41:00.000+10:00

Woke up to the distant sound of my mobile phone...

Immediately got dressed and pleaded to get a lift from Dave to go to the city...Met Sheda n family n also Nackish there...Man, that gal is now skinnier than what she used to be...Didn't had the chance to be introduced to all her family members but its okey..Well, its my fault anyways...They left for Fortitude Valley and me n kish walked back towards her place...Then realised that kish's phone is with sheda..Within 15 minutes or so, we were at the Valley to meet Sheda again..After goodbyes and hugs again we had to leave..Sheda n family headed to Carrara (hope i spell it right) market in Gold Coast...Kish went home n me took a bus to Kelvin Grove...

Did nothing much today...Basically just sleep n eat n watching tv...BB eviction was on at 8 tonight...KRYSTAL was evicted from the house and left with a Red Mitsu Lancer VRX...ME WANT ONE!!Tommorrow's nomination will be really interesting since the loud ones were evicted...I reakon it will be Paul, Terri and Ryan...We'll see...

Anyways, many,many,many thanks to Sheda for her patience and for the lovely present~~
*A HUGE HUG FROM ME*...Hopefully i can see her again before her flight back to Singapore next week..I didn't get the chance to say this before but hopefully she will have a relax and enjoyable trip with her love ones...Great to see ya again gal!!!

2004-05-28T17:24:00.000+10:00

The past few days were the busiest days in my life...

Assignments, group meetings, computers, internet, books, papers, pens and Neopets game were the things i spend most of my time with since Friday last week...I can't believe next week will be the week in this semester...My first final exam will be on the 16th of June so i have very little time to study everything...I guess time management will be a good option right now...

Just that i'm too busy to even construct a time management..got another assignment due in 2 weeks time...this one is a 40% and a group project...My groupmates are great (the best group project eve!!) and i'm pretty sure we can archieve the target marks...and currently im looking for jobs still...i know i have been putting a lot of time,energy and money in job hunting but still unsuccessful...*sob sob*...

Anyways, there are four people in the nominations this week...Terri (3x), Paul (1x), Krystal (1x) and Ashalea (1x)...i would probably vote for Paul since he misses his wife and kids...the evictions will be on Sunday at 8pm...Dave is gonna vote for Krystal...Jules would vote for Krystal as well...

Well, got to go n get dinner now...

2004-05-24T16:49:00.000+10:00

I can't believe im still stuck with this assignment...

Anyways, IGOR was evicted last nite...The eviction show was quiet and calm compared to Aphrodite's eviction nite...Well, the nomination's 2nite and i reckon Paul, Terri and Krystal will be up for eviction...

This is just gonna be a short blog 'coz my mind is blank now (this is why i hate blogging~~) and i have to finish up my assignment by 2moro...

Wish me luck!!

*grumpy*

Tired and restless...

2004-05-23T12:18:00.000+10:00

Yesterday was a hectic day for me...

Went to a workshop that helps me remember the whole marketing theories that i have learned all this years...The whole workshop was for 8 hours with 90 minutes of breaks in between...And because the workhop starts at 7.45 a.m and it was at Mt Gravatt, 6 cups of coffee feels like nothing...

Today is a stress day for me..Got an assignment due 2moro and i still have no clue what the question means..I need a miracle now...Well, it is all my fault...Should have done it earlier but i was just to busy with other assignments and seeking a job...I wish im sick now...At least i will have a medical reason to submit late *sighs*...

Tonight is the 2nd eviction night of Big Brother...Wonder who will it be this time...And nominations will be held 2moro...

Big Brother 4 Mania

2004-05-21T18:02:00.000+10:00

Its been 3 weeks now big brother 4 commenced and the prizes are getting better...

# 1 Million bucks!!($$$$)..it used to be only $200 thousand...

# A Mitsubishi Lancer VRX to every contestent...

# TWO(yes 2!!!) NEC mobile under 3 network services and $1000 credit...

How cool is that?????

There are also some other cool prizes such as watch and bla bla bla...check out their official website at

Last week eviction was a bomb...Aphrodite was voted out and this weeks nominations are Terri(2nd time), Igor(2nd time) and Elle(1st time)...i bet it will be Igor tho...he is such a d**khead (mind my language)...

Other popular reality shows on Australian TV rite now are American Idol 4, The Block 2 and not forgetting There's Something About Miriam...I personally think that TSAM (There's Something About Miriam) is a public humilation...those poor boys must hurt emotionally to be in that competition...im not sure if this show is shown in other countries...i doubt Malaysia will ever show it...

For those who are not aware of this show, it is all about this Miriam person...she is Latin model with gorgeous body and looks, dance perfectly and ADORES men...despite the description, she is actually a MAN herself...only had a boob job done (the bottom part is still attached with no intention to remove it) and been taking female hormones since she was 11...six men competing for some money and a holiday on a yatch with her...the thing is that they HAVE NO CLUE that she is a man *shock* *jaw dropped* *blank mind*...

well, tell u more about it later...

Job oh job, where art thou???

2004-05-20T20:16:00.000+10:00

Today is like any other Thursday...

* Classes from 12 noon to 9 pm
* Boring lectures
* Group meetings
* Calling people for part time jobs
* Frustration,anger and tired

I have been looking for a part time job for more than 6 months now...Apparently my lady luck is on holidays...But it does not stop me for keep looking...I have responsibility to carry and wouldn't want to give up now...

Let's not talk about the negetives anymore...

Today i have uploaded some links and photos for the public to see...Don't worry its all for general viewing:)I'll be adding a link to a good friend of mine in Canada soon...I met him back in college years and currently he is studying in Uni of Winniepeg in Canada..I'll also might upload some pics back in 2002 and 2003 (the good old times)...

I just got my results for my case study in Service Marketing and assignment for Markets, Firm and Resources...its all good even tho i was expecting worse news...

Well, Dave invited me for a cruise to Toowoomba(i hope i get the spelling right..) next month...to the people reading this blog there is a link to Cruising Brisbane site...This is a tribute to my best friend who is heavily invovled in it...I can say that i have learned a lot about cars nowadays and my knowledge of car increased from non-existent to .49% within 3 months...

Well, got to get back to my assignment now...

Why a new blog u asked??

2004-05-19T09:58:00.001+10:00

Hmmm...

I've questioned that myself...

Why a new blog???What am i doing???

I rarely post on the previous blog...what makes this one so special that i have to create it myself?

I guess i'm just trying to do new stuffs...well,new for me at least...everyone seems to have their own personal blog...not an effort to keep up-to-date but i just want to do something...honestly i hate computers and if can, i dont want anything to do with it...

Well, looks like i have to keep blogging from now on...

Not that anyone will read it anyways...

A fresh page...and a brand new chapter

2004-05-19T00:44:00.000+10:00

Who are u??

Why Are You Reading My Blog????

I am nobody...merely a dust in this world...a single fragment in people's life...never had the chance to do things...

But at the same time, been blessed with family and love...

Why r u still reading my blog???

Why r u so keen to read my blog???

Maybe u r an important person in my life...

Maybe u r starting to bitch about me...

Maybe u think that i am loopy by asking these questions...

Maybe i am just paranoid...

Maybe...